It's so hard to just keep everything to myself these days. I used to be able just to walk in the door set my stuff down and talk about my day and all my feelings and also bitch about everything that went wrong. Now I come home and am either alone or here with a man who wouldn't understand what I was going through that day nor would he care. I can't talk about one friend to another without thinking it might be passed around. I am going crazy these days i just wish i knew who to trust and whether the words that splatter out of their mouths are truths or not. I feel so lonely lately even though i have friends around me 24-7 it's not the same.
on another note.. I have not one single moment to think now and days between job 1 and job 2 and picking up my daughter and dropping her off. I just wish i had more time with her. I just wish i had more time with me.
A song came on my work playlist today "One More Day" if you don't know it you should probably listen to it.. anyways It states If i had one more day with you I'd be wishing still One more. That's how i feel, i want one more day but after that day i want another.... is this too much to ask? I miss Him.. Blehhh
As for good news Anna is coming on Friday I am SOOOOOO excited. I am purchasing P90X and will be hopelessly devoted to it for the next 90 days and I am no longer the whitest Kidd you know thanks to tanning.
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